[dayofpain]

i was in the hospital for about 2.5 weeks.

it was a long story and really sucked. i was brain dead for a while. intubated for a whole week. heavily sedated. now i dont remember half of december and dam near all of january.

as soon as i get my car back ill be coming out again.

heres what i look like brain dead.

NG tube in the nose.
intubated in both lungs down my throat
BIS monitors on my head and temple.
chest tube and central line into my sternum.

i also had 7 total IV's on my left arm, 8 on my right. not all used at the same time but holes poked in me none the less. i had an IV line into femoral artery to check blood gases every hour. Not to mention my personal favorite, a foley catheter.

people talk about friends who were close to death. i have been as close to death as anyone really can be. without remsa technicians and ICU dr's i would be not so much here today. scares the shit out of me to be honest. not something i feel good about. it even feels wierd posting about it here. but im pretty scared to do normal things. i been in my house for the last 2 weeks trying to recover from the pneumonia that happens when youre intubated. i cant really breath and im trying to retrain my muscles to do shit they could always do before.

i hope to have my car back soon and be able to come out and eat a chili dog with u guys.